Last year I posted a list of the most interesting new books I’d read during 2011. With one or two exceptions, I focused that time on brand-new works by unknown writers. Many such writers continue to deserve every break they (we) can get. However, I’ve also been reading plenty of authors who are well-established or even famous. Usually, doing so reveals the reasons for their success, and that’s instructive. Therefore, my list for 2012 includes several who need no introduction as well as a few who’ve yet to be noticed (and with less concern for the date of publication). For expanded reviews, click the titles.

By the way, just a reminder: Books make excellent gifts.

Patrimony, Philip Roth

The big news about Roth is his recent decision to write no more. Fortunately, he has produced more than enough edifying prose to keep readers busy well into the future. I worried that this memoir about his father’s declining years might be depressing. (Some readers have been hesitant about tackling my story for the same reason.) But in life, trouble comes to us all, and the interesting thing is the human response–whether it makes sense, whether the people responding are recognizable, whether there’s a takeaway. For me, the takeaway of Patrimony is that despite all the suffering involved, death and loss can be endured and more than endured. In a way, they can even be a way of defining and appreciating life.

Oxygen, Carol Cassela

Because of my background I’m a sucker for both nonfiction and fiction on the subject of medicine. That goes double when a disabled child is involved. But aside from this novel’s specific appeal to me, it should make good reading for anyone. The writing is exceptionally good. The dialog is perfect.

Our Lady of the Forest, David Guterson

This story revolves around a character who is a vital presence at the outset, with disturbing memories, and then, as she is seen more and more from the perspective of others, gradually becomes objectified. When Guterson’s characters speak, the dialog is wonderful. Our Lady should be read aloud. The story should be enacted. To me, it feels almost more real than actual life.

Replica, Lexi Revellian

This novel gets an A+ for convincing characters and dialog and–especially appreciated–for a wonderfully unique story idea (to which I cannot do justice in the space available here). The main drawback is that, having finished, I found it sad to think how many more books I’d have to read before finding another as enjoyable. Quite likely her Remix, which is in my queue, will provide a fix…

Yearning, Marcela Mendez

What I like best and especially recognize here is Amanda’s ever-renewing hope that all her efforts will finally be rewarded. At first, the reader can see it coming: She thinks this month she’ll finally become pregnant, and we know she won’t. Later, her success seems so inevitable that I at least thought the story was basically over. But no, it’s not that simple, either in life or in good fiction. That part is particularly well handled.

Goodbye for Now, Laurie Frankel

Inspired by the grief his girlfriend feels for her recently-deceased grandmother, a software engineer applies his rare talents to the challenge of dynamic video chats and emails with the dead. This turns out to be possible because of all the digital data people leave behind nowadays in the form of Facebook posts, emails, photos and video, etc. As one of his partners in the enterprise cleverly observes, “You are what you tweet.” The story is a serious effort to explore questions like the nature of consciousness and the correct response to death and sorrow.

The Cave, José Saramago

This novel shows how modern life is robbing our lives of meaning, or even reality, until we are in danger of reenacting Plato’s allegory of the cave. If that message sounds overly didactic, it’s softened by the human warmth in the relationships between the four principal characters–five, if we include their dog, as we should. It’s great writing. But I wish the author had inserted paragraph breaks and used conventional punctuation.

The Girl Who Tweaked Two Lion’s Tails, Pierre Van Rooyen

This is a riveting story that kept me up late at night. Further, I’m confident that in the right hands it could be made into a blockbuster movie. It has the feel of being based on actual people and/or events. But maybe that’s due only to the way the story is presented.

Strange Worlds, Paul Clayton

The variety from one story in this collection to the next is refreshing, but what they mostly have in common is depiction of a society that could plausibly be in the future for ours. Perhaps a future that’s uncomfortably close. The prospect of stepping into it in our own lifetime may have been the author’s motivation for writing. That is to say, these are cautionary tales.

Escape from Camp 14: One Man’s Remarkable Odyssey from North Korea to Freedom in the West, Blaine Harden

The justification for any government’s existence is to enable its people to have more abundant lives. Any government, any leader, will miss that mark when it recognizes no authority beyond its own lust for power. Then, like the Kim regime, it begins lying to its citizens and demonizing and then persecuting those who might stand in its way. I believe it’s vitally important to acknowledge the effects of this very extreme example. My heart breaks for the multitudes still living the life Shin escaped. And I pray that my own country doesn’t move further in that direction.

I thought, at first, we were there. He looked directly at me, a steady, relaxed gaze, which in itself would be a remarkable thing for him to be doing, and should have been a clue. Standing in the washed out glow of a streetlight, he leaned back against a yellow VW Beetle with both hands thrust deep in his pockets and regarded me, smiling faintly. As usual, I could only guess at what he found amusing.

Then I understood that it was really I who was looking at him. I pulled my attention away for a moment, not wanting to run the show. It seems I was straddling my old 10-speed, resting sweaty forearms on the handlebars. I looked down and prodded the toe clip, idly spinning the pedal on its axis.

“I never taught you how to ride a bike,” I murmured sorrowfully. I looked up again to see him striding through the garage and into the house.

Now we were in the dining room, still standing, the table between us. It was my own dining room, a place in which we’d both been innumerable times, but not like this. On the other hand, I sensed something archetypal about this encounter, an elemental cross-generational thing, possibly even a scene we’d rehearsed before.

He said, “I think someone is dreaming about this, and maybe planning to tell the world about my inner life.” He winked.

I switched to my earnest voice. “The important thing would not be telling secrets, but rather our simply being able to do this, you know, really.”

He nodded. “We could do this. If the me who’s here met the you who’s there.”

Zany laughter bubbled inside me. “But the you who’s there is the one everybody knows. There’s not much difference between the me who’s here and the me who’s there. Is there? But nobody has seen the you who’s here.”

He opened a varnished wooden box on the table, put his hands inside, and concentrated on doing something behind the raised lid.

“Um, yeah,” he said absent-mindedly. “Maybe people need glasses.”

I said, “I hate to say this, but there’ve been other dreams when you were dead. We were grieving!” My words stumbled out. “I thought those dreams meant, you know, that it was all over, and there was no more hope of reaching you.”

He glanced up from whatever he was doing in the box. “Ever hear anyone say you take yourself too seriously?”

I could feel a line of sweat moving down my forehead. “God, I’m hot,” I muttered to myself. “What is wrong with me?”

“Why don’t you turn the pillow over?” he suggested.

“That does help. Say, I used to do that all the time when I was a little kid. It’s nice and cool. I’d forgotten that trick.”

He smirked. “I’m closer to being a kid than you are.”

“True. OK, you have any other words of wisdom for me?”

“Is there such a thing?”

“Well, look. I know for a fact that people say stupid things all the time. So it kind of stands to reason that there could be the opposite of stupid.”

“You should know that words like stupid rub me the wrong way.”

I mumbled an incoherent apology, something about the excessive latitude we allow some words. He wasn’t listening, so I said, “Son, has anyone ever said you were stupid?”

He looked up from the box and gazed into the distance with a noble, longsuffering expression, immobile as finely polished marble.

“I’m like a statue to you,” he observed finally.

“You’re no statue. You’re my boy.”

“People don’t have expectations of statues.”

“We see something made by man, we look within ourselves. If it resonates, then we admire it.”

He sighed. “What you have in your head, about me, is made by man.”

“But not you yourself.”

“Not me.”

“You’re not made by man.”

He snorted derisively, looking back inside the wooden box. “I’m sure you think man could’ve done a better job of it.”

“I don’t get it. Do you want people to have expectations of you, or not? Have you never had expectations of yourself?”

He rolled his eyes. “We go way back. I remember, same as you, what that was like. Thank you for trying.” He inclined his head formally. “Some of it was good. You should know by now that’s ancient history.”

“Because the you who’s there–“

“The me who’s there doesn’t give a shit any more. I learned you don’t pin everything on–.” He lifted a hand and made vague circular motions above his head.

“Now that you mention it, that’s something I’ve always wanted to ask you. What do you give a shit about? I’d like to know. Because all I ever wanted to do was help you succeed.”

“Boo hoo. There you go again. And shame on me. A boy gets to my age, he’s supposed to start helping the old man, right?”

“I’m not asking for that,” I said, a sob welling up within my throat.

He smiled brightly. “It’s almost breakfast time. Hungry yet?”

“I’d rather talk while we can. We never talk.”

“One of us never talks. The other one talks too damn much.”

“Hey, hey, a little respect wouldn’t be amiss.”

He grinned even more radiantly and leaned across the table to clap a surprisingly large and strong hand on my shoulder. “Come on, I think you can take a joke.”

“You want me to shut up?”

“Know what? I want you to eat. Here.” He stepped away from the box, holding a black tray arranged with crisp Japanese precision–a large brown bowl flanked by a pair of long, lacquered chopsticks. He moved around the table and set it before me.

“Well that’s lovely.” I slipped into a chair and lifted the lid from the bowl, discovering I was suddenly desperate for refreshment. “Is it–is this yogurt?” He wasn’t there. I regarded the chopsticks with concern.

I heard his voice, behind me now. I wanted to see him again but couldn’t muster the energy to turn over. “You don’t have the right tools. That’s been my problem all along. I don’t have a spoon to give you. You don’t have what I need, either. We make do with what we’ve got. Or else let it go. That’s OK too.”

“But people can find tools. Make tools. Invent something new.”

His voice now came from such a distance I scarcely heard. “Good luck with that.”

Morning had arrived. The day was breaking over Mission Trails Summit, where he and I had never once gone biking together. Breaking over the neighborhood streets, where backpack-laden kids would soon be heading for school, and where short school buses would be plucking up those who followed my son’s footsteps. It’s morning there. And there is no here.

If there has been a theme for this month, for me it has been caring.

Caring as in feeling anxiety and frustration when, for example, through a series of unfortunate events my younger son Braxton put a gash in his chin, requiring seven stitches—and then managed to reopen the wound the day after the sutures were removed.

Caring as in dreading the implications of an upcoming conference scheduled to address the fact that my older son Joseph no longer fits in at the center where he has spent the last few years. (I’ll say more about that later, when I know more. But right now the situation does not sound good.)

It’s human nature to feel some variety of care, about one thing or another, on an ongoing basis. I care just as much about my daughter Susannah as I do about her brothers, but these days (as far as I know) her life proceeds with little turmoil, or at least she’s able to handle issues as they arise with minimal interference from her mom and me. She brings me an algebra problem from her homework or she asks for a few bucks, and then all is well. These issues are neither urgent nor dire, and—also much appreciated—are easily solved. So far. I know not to take that blessing for granted.

In my life, the most acute examples of caring have come in connection with my role as a parent. Beyond that, life presents an endless menu of other potential concerns. Some of those opportunities merit more focus than others, but living means attending to them all in some fashion. Likewise, caring about an issue can lead to situations in which I can’t avoid noting a lack of care given it by other people.

We could all provide examples. Here’s one. An autism research center in Canada contacts me from time to time for input to support the various studies it runs. Most recently, they sent a questionnaire to be filled out by the developmental professional who works with Joseph. It came with a postage-paid return envelope, and consisted of a few sheets of questions with multiple-choice answers. The therapist accepted the package and said she would do it, for me (as if I were the beneficiary)—and then dropped the ball.

The study itself is a small matter from our point of view, in that the outcome is unlikely to affect Joseph’s life, but it’s disturbing to see a certain consistency in the professional’s failure to take that request seriously. Going back quite a few years, her colleagues have had a similar response to every request I ever brought them. (I allude to that here.)

The month’s theme probably got its start a few weeks ago when I reread a novel by Daniel Quinn. In a way, that story dramatizes a variant of an issue that’s at the heart of What About the Boy?: Life can present you with a problem that calls for a serious response. You can care very much about providing that response, even to the extent that providing it becomes bound up with your concept of who you are. If you can be satisfied with the extent of your own response (as I am at the moment with my responses to Susannah), all well and good. Disappointment begins if you think it would be appropriate for someone else to take a similar interest.

I read this charmer for the very first time last night when putting my little guy (Joseph’s (much) younger brother) to bed. What a pleasant surprise!

Up till now, if asked to pick a favorite Seuss title, I’d have gone for The King’s Stilts, mainly because of memories of having it read to me as a child. (We still have an early edition of that classic, which might be worth some money if only my sister and I hadn’t marked up the pages.) Dr. Seuss’s better-known creations are great fun, too. Last spring my 12-year-old did a school report on him, from which I learned such interesting trivia as the origin of his first title, And to Think That I Saw it on Mulberry Street: It was suggested by the rhythmic sound of the engine on a ship he was riding home from Europe.

Anyway, with the continuing presence of so many examples in our house, I’d thought I was reasonably up to speed on the Seuss oeuvre. Discovering surprising new material at this late date has a way of making me stop to reconsider. Offhand, I can think of one other that has such a clear moral lesson–Thidwick the Big-Hearted Moose. This is not to say that lessons necessarily make a story better. It’s OK to enjoy something for its own sake, and there’s even a Seuss quote to that effect. But right now I find myself receptive to a little more.

No doubt the excitement has something to do with the story’s relevance to a theme I gnaw at with many of my blog posts (this one, for example), i.e., trouble and the disappointing results of our efforts to overcome it. Of course, I also immediately recognized the Wubble chap, who confidently promises to deliver our suffering main character to a utopia but instead ends up multiplying the hardships. That same guy is scheduled to give a speech tonight on prime-time TV. The lure of such characters resembles that of the lottery, and I think all of us feel it at least a little from time to time.

Hence the value of a story like this for folks of all ages.

My son has a habit of demanding that I read the same books again and again every night, so that, from my point of view, we’ve completely worn out some first-rate stories (The Cat in the Hat, Green Eggs and Ham, The Velveteen Rabbit, etc.). Right now I hope he’s up for more of Solla Sollew.

(I originally posted this review on Goodreads.)

The first anniversary of What About the Boy’s publication occurs at a time when voters in my country are preparing to make a big decision. It’s no secret to anyone who knows me that I can bear to think about only one of the likely outcomes. And yet, as I encounter the same tired talking points being hurled back and forth every day, by people impervious to ideas other than the ones they’ve already accepted, it seems that discussion has stopped being productive.

I’m not really talking about national politics or any particular issue, because other controversies can follow the same template. Just to pick an example, at the height of the vaccine debate, opposing sides had ceased talking to each other in favor of connecting with uninformed people and convincing them that the other side was dangerous. (OK, fair disclosure: I participated in that scuffle.) And I’ve seen coworkers—highly skilled, presumably intelligent professionals—disagree so fervently that the encounter more closely resembled a dogfight than a rational exchange of views. Bystanders intruded at their own risk.

Given so much discord, is it possible to back up and find universal agreement on anything?

Probably there’d be no objection from any side to this claim:

Things are not as they should be.

Naturally, saying this implies that we know how things should be, although disagreement resumes the minute anyone proposes a fix.

On the plane of existence where we mere mortals operate, I see approximately three alternative responses:

• We can trust that somebody (possibly we ourselves) has answers that will make things right (or at least better). Everybody else just needs to be persuaded or otherwise brought into line until that remedy takes hold.
• We can observe that most human effort is wheel-spinning that accomplishes little more than elevating one’s blood pressure. Unfortunately, if nothing can be accomplished, that leaves only depression or at best fatalism.
• We can acknowledge that things are not only in a mess but are likely to remain that way, and conclude that the only defense is to carve out as nice a niche, for ourselves and our loved ones, as is possible, and take consolation there.

(There may be a Master Plan, in the context of which all this chaos makes sense, perhaps beautifully. I’m inclined to believe that Plan exists. But the focus here is on our current sphere of reference.)

I hadn’t thought of it in these terms before, but all the above scenarios play out in WATB.

Following Joseph’s birth, things most certainly were not as they should have been!

Judy and I believed with all our hearts that somebody would know how to improve the situation, and would be motivated to do so. When we found likely heroes, we gave them our allegiance and trust. And in all honesty, decades later I cannot bring myself to say that we were wrong. Judy went so far as to encourage others to do likewise. Sometimes, the resistance she encountered astonished her.

Joseph’s condition improved—but after extraordinary effort, things were still far from right. We fell so far short of the hoped-for result that Judy simply could not accept what had happened.

Picking up the pieces (with much guidance from Song Yi), I eventually created a nurturing little haven that remains the home base for Joseph as well as his younger siblings. There is indeed a deep consolation in these latter-day developments. I celebrate some of them on my personal Facebook page.

But the original problem has never been resolved, or even adequately addressed. Apparently, no one knows how to do that.

OK, so things tend not to work out so well. Still, each of us does make a difference, in everything we do. It was my hope in writing WATB that a frank portrayal of my family’s experience would add something to the question of how adversity might be handled (or in keeping with the metaphor in the book, how a maze ought or ought not be negotiated).

I also hope that I’ve reflected accurately on our interactions with other people and have portrayed them fairly.

Some of the people in this story disappointed me. Disappointment was in direct proportion either to my justification in expecting something from them or to the extravagance of their unfulfilled promises. Also, there were a few low-lifes who took advantage of our desperation for their personal gain. On the other hand, I owe boundless gratitude to so many people who could offer nothing more than friendship, a helping hand, and the benefit of their own perspective. Without them, none of us would have survived.

WATB supports the conclusion that entrenched positions can lead to ruin. In other words, we do need to continue talking to one another—and listening. All of us, myself included.

Several weeks ago, I learned about a little book that is the product of a collaboration between a developmentally disabled teenager and his mother. He contributed several arresting illustrations, and she added written context. I ordered a copy and suggest that you consider doing so as well.

This book provides touching insight into the perspective of Wolf, the young man, as interpreted by the person who comes closest to understanding him. She explains that the things we find important do not register with her son. For example, he has no interest in the authority, social status, or mood of another person, or in passing the time with “small talk.” Instead, he cares about animals, Bigfoot, ghosts, life on other planets, and meteor showers, or as he puts it, “realistic things.”

While I think anyone would welcome the opportunity to consider another perspective, this particularly fascinates me because I’ve spent so many years wondering how my own son, Joseph, sees the world. Unfortunately, in our case we don’t have the avenues of artwork or verbal language. If I know what’s going on in Joseph’s head, it’s only because of clues like his facial expression. He can convey a lot that way, but a very big gap remains for a dad who relies on words as heavily as I do. The situation feels somewhat like the one in the movie Mr. Holland’s Opus, in which the music-loving father must come to terms with the fact that his son is deaf.

For a while, Wolf was drawing disturbing images because, he said, he needed to get it out of his head. His mom connected that preoccupation with the influence of “reality bullies” who believed he needed to spend his time in school. He had concluded by that point that school was a place where “I felt sick in my body and sick in my head.” She advocated for him, as of course a parent must, and won his release. After that, “his artwork was no longer plagued by disasters.”

“The older Wolf got,” the mother tells us, “the more pressure the world put on him to normalize … and it just wasn’t happening.”

I know all too well the feeling of having something not happen. I hesitate to use the word “pressure,” because it sounds so negative. I continue to think that trying to help a child “normalize” is a fundamentally good thing. Nevertheless, in so many cases we make our best efforts (granted, with mistakes along the way). We put our trust in those whom we believe merit that trust. We couple our efforts with theirs. And, as another parent of a disabled kid puts it, that pursuit turns into “a fool’s errand.” It can make the parents crazy with frustration, let alone the child.

How do things end up going so wrong?

I do maintain that something is going wrong here. There is no question that, from any objective measure, including degree of control over his own circumstances, Joseph’s quality of life leaves a lot to be desired. And Wolf’s mom says up front that he “deals with chronic discomfort and confusion” that are due to his condition. It’s entirely reasonable for anyone to want to relieve a child of such problems. These are problems.

What are we to make of this? It’s the question I’ve had the most trouble with, over the years, and the one that other people seem to have the hardest time answering as well. All I can say is that a problem that cannot be resolved to our satisfaction is a problem we must make the best of. We must live with it, and we owe it to ourselves and to everyone around us to make life as good as it can be.

Wolf the Artist provides a fine example of a family doing just that. Please check it out.

At an earlier stage in life, I underlined key passages in everything I read. Didn’t matter if it was a textbook on histology or a play by Shakespeare. I wanted to find the kernel of usable truth in there—the basic idea or fact that could make a difference in how things turned out for me.

In the case of a textbook, read in preparation for a looming exam, the rationale for this is obvious. But often I had a longer view. I assumed that most of what I read might have long-term relevance. I didn’t expect to have time to read the whole book more than once, so I wanted to leave markers to enable my future self to return and quickly find the takeaway among all those less important words.

Then, having extracted the essence from many books, presumably it would be no insurmountable task to assemble all those snippets, look for commonality or some kind of synthesis, and be able to say with some finality This much is true.

And then, of course, to be more enlightened, or more effective—more in sync with the great minds that had gone before. (The notion feels slightly sophomoric at this point.)

I’m reminded of that long-dormant impulse by the advice I hear nowadays, as a blogger, to populate my writing with keywords and bullet points. The idea is to make information easily accessible by web surfers and search engines alike.

I don’t seem to be doing a very good job of that here.

Now, in my day-job as a technical writer, I do know I’m supposed to provide just enough information for my readers to act upon. For example, someone reading the user guide for a new mobile phone has a specific purpose and doesn’t want to spend a whole lot of time accomplishing that purpose. Nobody does. They have too many other things to do.

But let’s say someone needs to get to the bottom of a controversial question, of which there are many in life. In my family’s story, when our baby had a developmental problem, we wanted answers and we wanted them yesterday. Time was passing, and the other kids were leaving him far behind. Doctors told us there was nothing anyone could do for him. But alternative provider A assured us that he could help. Alternative provider B warned us to pay no attention to A and to trust him instead.

We all want life to be simpler. We want to absorb a succinct message and have it be sufficient.

So in a situation like my family’s, eagerness to find a quick answer may drive us to uncritical acceptance of the wrong one. Human nature being what it is, deciding that one option is best can result in a rigidity that prevents us from reevaluating when new information comes along. The trouble is that the discarded choice may be less wrong than it is incomplete. In our story, the mainstream doctors had a valid point—but so did some of the alternatives. By ignoring the pediatrician’s advice, we did improve our son’s quality of life. On the other hand, we could not completely overcome his problems, and in the process of trying we damaged ourselves. The mainstream doctors had warned that we needed to look after ourselves as well as our son, and it turned out they were right about that.

It’s a challenge, distilling my experiences down to a handful of pithy truths. I hope that people can avoid some of the mistakes we made along the way, but to do so they probably need to travel some of that road with us, at least vicariously, on the page.

Henry Ford, the entrepreneur who showed a younger world how to get things done in a big way, has been credited with this gem of wisdom: “If you think you can do a thing or think you can’t do a thing, you’re right.”

I was reminded of that today when writing a short remembrance of another pioneer, Ray Bradbury. The story in WATB, and my ongoing ruminations about what it means, amount to an exploration of the limits of what we can do.

Here are more nuggets from Mr. Ford, and my current thoughts on their application:

“Time and money spent in helping men to do more for themselves is far better than mere giving.”

To me, this is a variation on what Glenn Doman said back in 1986: that the right objective for Joseph was that he be “an answer to the world’s problems, rather than another of its problems.” I understand that some disability and diversity advocates see things a little differently. My short answer to them is that it boils down to having options. Someone who has the choice of affecting the world around him is better off than someone who depends on that world for everything that happens. Assuming he makes wise choices, other people are better off as well.

“I cannot discover that anyone knows enough to say definitely what is and what is not possible.”

When Joseph was one year old, his doctors transitioned from telling us to be patient and hope for the best into telling us to get counseling, so that we could cope with the fact that nothing could be done for him. At least, they proposed doing nothing for him, and they warned us to stay away from any alternative providers who might have a different take on the situation.

Those doctors lost all credibility in our eyes when alternative providers did in fact help him.

Did the alternatives have all the answers we needed? No. Were they as smart as they seemed to think they were? Alas, they were not. This was doubly disturbing, since they claimed as adamantly as had the original doctors that no answers existed outside their own specific realm. Again, we were advised not to look elsewhere.

If we had been less motivated and more convinced that we were getting the complete picture, we might have reacted differently. But when you have a problem that you feel absolutely must be solved, and the known resources for solving it no longer inspire confidence, something happens in your head. At least, something happened in our family. We set out on a quest for answers with no guidance beyond what felt right.

Were we smart enough to do that? Probably not. But we didn’t want to give up without establishing for ourselves the potential of every plausible course of action. I cannot regret our choices.

“There is joy in work. There is no happiness except in the realization that we have accomplished something.”

When I’m asked to talk about WATB, a point I always try to make is that, despite having a child with profound developmental problems, and despite being busier than we’d ever been in our lives, Judy and I spent a great deal of the time feeling extremely happy. Optimism reigned in our household. Volunteers who came to see us felt energized, and no doubt that was the reason many of them kept coming. We believed fervently in the rightness of what we were doing. We saw evidence in our son that reinforced that belief. Those days were an extraordinarily upbeat time in our family’s life, and I look back on them with wonder.

“Thinking is the hardest work there is, which is probably the reason why so few engage in it.”

It isn’t easy to think clearly when in the thick of battle. Also, one’s thinking is only as good as one’s knowledge, and throughout the story I tell knowledge was never in great supply. We started off with basic instincts and notions of right and wrong, and that arsenal was what informed a lot of the decisions made along the way.

But the writer writes to teach himself, and a lot of my deeper thinking on the subject of our campaign took place as I was putting my book together. So far, this thinking hasn’t particularly benefitted Joseph. It has, however, enabled me to bring new understanding to his extraordinary childhood and current status. Further revelations continue to take shape as I blog about the story. This is not a linear process. Time passes with no new insights. But then something clicks and my understanding acquires new depth.

This latter phase was optional. The story could have ended without my ever having digested or told it. I have benefitted personally from going back over it. My hope is that readers following the thinking that it dramatizes will see things anew in their own lives as well.

“Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently.”

From a practical standpoint, the first motorized quadicycle Henry Ford built wasn’t much of a vehicle. The first car company he put together didn’t exactly work out for him, either. The same can be said for the first several attempts Judy and I made to help Joseph. We took our son to doctors and therapists who, quite frankly, had other priorities that prevented them from giving his case the kind of attention it needed. We saw other providers whose frame of reference was too narrow, if not altogether wrong.

Every time a resource disappointed us, we looked for another. We looked to ourselves, as well, because early on it became obvious that nothing was going to happen that did not involve major effort on our part.

Several milestones and several plateaus later, to use automotive metaphors, we ran out of gas. We reached the end of the road. If further progress for Joseph is yet possible, the route it will take has not yet been surveyed.

However, my pledge to my son, alluded to in the book’s subtitle, is that I remain poised to resume the effort when a new course of action looks promising. I will do so armed with everything learned along the way. The result might yet be an answer to the world’s problems.

I took a day this past weekend to sit in on a conference entitled “Frontiers in Neural Disorders,” which brought together some researchers I’ve known about for many years.

I took notes, as I always do in situations like that. (I really think I missed my calling in life, because my interest in this sort of thing goes well beyond any hope of its being of practical benefit to anyone I know.)

I could report here about the general thrust of what was said about autism, schizophrenia, Alzheimer’s, bipolar disorder, ALS, etc. (if you’re curious, let me know and I’ll be glad to send my notes.) At the moment, however, I’m thinking about a short conversation I had there with Alan Lincoln, one of the presenters. I reintroduced myself and said I went to see him several years ago on Joseph’s behalf. Dr. Lincoln is a clinical psychologist with a special interest in autism, and probably at the time (early 90s?) I was hoping for an entrée into the world of behavior mod as had been introduced by his colleague Ivar Lovaas. I remember at that previous meeting he seemed to write down every word I said, and subsequently he turned us over to a younger therapist. (That experience was interesting, but I think our family was too far along — i.e., too worn down and with a son already too old — to benefit from it.)

Dr. Lincoln claimed to remember my name, and naturally he asked about Joseph’s current status. I speculated that Joseph had decided somewhere along the way that he was done with making extraordinary efforts to overcome his disability. This perception did not surprise Dr. Lincoln at all. He commented that no one wants to work at full throttle all the time. As soon as the structure of a daily program is removed (if not before), patients like Joseph often revert to what they find most comfortable. What results may not be our own idea of a good quality of life, but to some extent it may reflect a choice they have made.

It’s interesting that my wife, on that same day, went to a different presentation, to learn about enhancing our daughter’s academic success. And one of the points she brought home from that was that even whiz kids can reach a dead end when they get out from under the influence of constantly hovering parents — if they lack inner motivation. The primary challenge for the parents, then, is to bake in that motivation.

There seems to be a parallel. Of course, we all have a point beyond which we cannot go. Free will plays a part, too. Parents want both success and happiness for their kids. We can argue the objective merits of our idea of success, and insist that our kids share that idea. At least sometimes, parents know best. But sometimes, for one reason or another, the kids are going to take a different path.

And we’ve got to find a way to be at peace with that.

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Across	Down
2. Bestseller about circus life	1. Sci-fi writer knighted by the Queen
5. Setting for some Burroughs tales	3. Utopian novel with anagram title
6. Whitman said, “I celebrate ______”	4. King with a daughter problem
10. Nadsat slang for “good”	7. Still waiting for this guy
11. Sports writer, lost a daughter to CF	8. Pondered a road not taken
16. ____ Kampf	9. Translated by a committee
17. He wrote Westerns	12. Writes legal thrillers
19. Not as desirable a name as Ernest	13. “Ode on a Grecian ___”
20. The ___ Sleep	14. Bad guy in Othello
22. Requested for Algernon	15. Many poems have this
25. A modern confessional genre	18. “A single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want of a ____”
26. “The past is not dead. It is not even ____.”	21. “All happy families are _____”
27. Dog who traveled around the U.S. with his master	22. Iconic horror story penned by the wife of a poet
29. Lysistrata led the women on ______	23. Wells’ meek folk of the future
30. He set his novel in Macondo	24. Hemingway’s old man
31. Worn by a troublesome cat	28. The cruelest month
33. “It was the age of wisdom, it was the age of ______”	29. What Atlas might do
35. A story needs this	32. “Stately, ___ Buck Mulligan”
36. Had a dragon tattoo	34. Wolfe’s astronauts had the right _____
38. Dwelt by a pond	37. Whale hunter
41. A lonely hunter	39. Premier authority of English language
43. Went down the river with Huck	40. Nevermore will he write
44. Was read (for a time) in Tehran	42. Rabbit did this
45. Wrote a haiku in the metro